Friday, December 20, 2013

{I Hope You Know...}

So it's taken me a long time to hit publish on this one...but here it is!

After reading this post recently...I have been feeling convicted to the same. 







I feel like people have a perception of my little family. 

A perception that we live a perfect little life...

And I'm afraid I've built into that perception. 

But here's what on my heart right now! 


- I hope you know that this blog is the best of us...I should share the worse too...but who wants to do that?

- I hope you know that I clean on Thursdays and by Friday our house is usually messy again.

- I hope you know that I struggle with being inadequate. Yes...Miss Overachiever feels like she should do more at times

- I hope you know that our marriage takes a lot of work. A. Lot. Of. Work. 

- I hope you know that I have insecurities...{hello I will always and probably forever hate my legs}

- I hope you know that there are days that I just want to curl up and pretend I don't have responsibilities

I hope that you know that even though I lost 43 lbs...I struggle to keep it off every single day

- I hope you know that I will always be insecure that I didn't get a full-time teaching position. Always

- I hope you know that there are days when Wendel is a saint and deals with way more than he should

- I hope you know that there are days that I want to punch Wendel in the face...love you dear :) 

- I hope you know that I decorated our Christmas tree for a second time because "I hated it"

- I hope you know that I've totally done therapy...not my thing

- I hope you know that calling me "perfect" is as bad as calling me fat because I am so so not perfect

- I hope you know that last Easter I ate four whole bags of peanut butter M&Ms...by myself

- I hope you know that I still cry in front of my closet because I can't find anything to wear

- I hope you know that this blog drains me at times because I don't want to let anyone down

- I hope you know that my perfectionism is really freaking draining

- I hope you know that this year had been a really tough one for me

-I hope you know that your sweet comments mean the world to me

- I hope you know that I feel blessed for my incredible life and wouldn't trade anything


{All pictures via the incredible Amanda Mera with Sunny Studios}

Sorry for the intense post...hope you feel better about yourself :) 

And I really hope you're thinking "okay...she really doesn't have it all together"

Have a great weekend doing Christmas-y things...I know we will! 

8 comments:

  1. Thanks so much for being honest, Lelia!!! You are awesome!

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    1. Thank you so much Elizabeth! Merry Christmas!

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  2. I appreciate this post very much :) and I still think you're pretty great!!

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  3. Love you girl! I'm in the same boat with most of those... especially crying in front of my closet. Merry Christmas!

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    1. Haha yeah I figure most girls are in the same boat with that one :)

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  4. I love you Miss Leila and so wish you were still Eden's teacher, you left a lasting impression and will always have a special place in our hearts, thanks for you courage in saying what so many of us are afraid to admit! You are a beautiful person.

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    1. Aw thank you so much! I sure do miss seeing your sweet face everyday and truly miss that precious girl of yours! Have a Merry Christmas!

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